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Entries for January, 2006

January 7th, 2006

confessions nia

wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
Family in crisis that only grows older

Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I wear all your old clothes, the old polo sweater
I dream of another you the one who would never
never Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me, that’s what I needed

So why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don’t know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart
Of a broken heart

I love you, I love you
I love you,I,
I love you,
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
I dont know you
But I still want to
Daughter to father
Daughter to father
Tell me the truth
Did you ever love me
Did you ever love me
These are... the confessions of a broken heart

Ohhhh... yea

And I waited for the postman to bring me a letter

Currently feeling: crazy

Posted by aryl at 03:38 PM | 1 court appeals

January 17th, 2006

what a damn day!!!

aryl

i woke up cryin this mornin...i really don't know the reason why...later on nung jeep ako muntikan na kong hikain kase ung katabi ko nagyoyosi...tapos when i arrived at school knew that i left my money at on my dresser...i really need to go home to get it...but before that, sinamahan ko muna friend ko sa bank...as i look at the clock i knew that today is 17th day of january...

"haaiii...why am i still affected...haaaiiii....miguel....where are you?!i just wanna know if you're doin fine...if you're ok...if...if...if....haiiizzz...i just really want to talk to you...i know di na tau but ciempre worried, concern lang talaga ako sau!!=(( ska........"

Do you know how confusing you are? You are the most confusing person in the world. Sometimes you confuse me so much I get confused about why I'm still crazy about you

How can you walk away from me when all I can do is watch you leave?

I never asked for this, I never asked for these feelings. If I could, I'd take them away.... I don't like seeing you and feeling like I'm on the top of the world and once you leave it's like I'm lost. I have no guide, no one there to help me, no one there to pick me up. I just wish this would go away

If I could explain love in one word it would have to be trust. Trust that he doesn't cheat on you, trust that he doesn't lie to you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk, trust that you don't have to worry about him breaking up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up for you, trust that he will never fall in what we call love with another girl, trust that he wont just get sick of you, and trust that he wants you like you want him

nweiz...babawi nlng aq bukas...hehehe....

Currently listening to: burn
Currently feeling: worried to my baby...!=((

Posted by aryl at 04:29 PM | overruled

a letter to god

aryl

Dear God,

Why do You torture me so? When will You ever let my hardships end? When will my endless suffering abate? Why am I so tortured?

"But, my child, I have given you everything you want. Why are you tortured so?"

Because, God... Oh wait, God, while you are here I want to thank you for my lovedones My lovedones are such beautiful blessings. Thank you, God, for these wonderful gifts. Thank you for their wit and their charm. Thank you for their health. I will cherish them with every breath I take, and forever be grateful and indebted to You.

"You are most welcome, my child. But, please tell me - why are you still tortured so?"

Because, God... Oh, and God? I wanted to thank you, again! Thank you for the food on my table, and the roof over my head, and these many precious moments of my life. My life has never been better!

"You are welcome, my child. But, please, please, tell me - why are you tortured so?"

Because, God... My dear God? Are You still there? Good. I thought You might have left me. I want to thank You for this most latest blessing. This wonderful new man You have placed in my life. How did You know, God, that we would be so perfect for each other? How did you know that the time was finally perfect in both of our lives...that the time was right for us to meet?

"I know everything, my child. And you are most welcome. Thank you for your patience. But, please, please, tell me why you are still tortured so."

Because, God. I am tortured so because...because now that I have no worries, no griefs, no more battles to fight, and no more strife, I am tortured by the 'peace'. It is unnerving, baffling, and uncomfortable. Tell me God, how can I stop this endless torture and relax in my joy and the gifts You have bestowed upon me? Tell me, my dear God. When will my torture end?

"My dear child, don't you know that I send you 'grief' as my biggest gift to you? So that you may have sight to appreciate my other gifts to you? So that you may rejoice in the glory and not be blinded to your blessings. So that you may feel these gifts that I give you?"

Oh, thank You, God! I understand fully now! Of all my blessings, my torture is truly my biggest blessing from You, for without it I would not know of all my many other blessings! Thank You, God! Thank You for the gift of grief!

Currently listening to: u'll always be my baby
Currently feeling: still worried s bhei q!

Posted by aryl at 05:19 PM | 3 court appeals

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